preliminary observations may have been overly ambitiuos

So may original asses ment of this blogging thing might have been done a little bit soon.

I wrote a vast majority of my blogs during exam week when i was supposed to be studying for exams that i really didn't care about in courses that weren't all that hard. And after a couple weeks of that i said i enjoyed writing them and that it was valuable to get my idea's out and work through them on paper. (well...screen)

Well the first one is still true, i do miss writing blogs and hopefully i'll get back to it on a semi-regular basis soon, but as for helping me think i was mistaken. All through those early blogs i was in a fairly consistent state of mind but over the last two weeks i have gone through three different mind sets which were not conducive to writing anything down, hence the unplanned hiatus.

First off is the completely unproductive life style. Over christmas i made it my goal to do as little as possible. That included thinking. During that time i did sit down and try to write a blog two or three times but there was honestly nothing in my head to work with. I suppose this is good because i'm back at school somewhat rested and that is what i had hoped to do...i just never imagined that i would be as sucesful as i was.

Second mind set which has not allowed me to write anything recently is the VERY productive mind set. Last couple days i was in BC i started to try and cram in a bunch of reading that i had planned to do over the break. Like i said i never dreamed i would actully be able to turn my brain off, as i was packing i actively planned to be A) as unproductive as posible and B) read Atlas Shrugged, Two other trash books, a month or two worth of Marxism readings, write a confrence paper, and edit my Plato coloquim submission...bit of a mixed message. Anyway towards the end of the break i started craming in Rand at about 100 pages/day, another 40-50/day of Marx, finished a trash book, wrote three drafts of my confrence paper. So my mind was buzzing...i really had no NEED to write them down. (also i don't think very many people want to read about trans-generatinal deviation from an institutional norm and the reactionary response of specific cross sections to that anti-thesis)

And the third non-blog-condusive mind set is one that i am currently in is the "stressed-right-the-fuck-out" and/or very-very-busy mind set. Although this current environment does give me a chance for introspection it does not allow time for actully writing (i feel kinda guilty sitting here now) I bit off more then i could chew in the first week of class and really want to start this semester started on the right foot so i've been reading for about 6 hours a night since i've been back...more on that later, i really DO need to get back to work.

But that's why i have been underground...relaxation, productivity, and stress.

Hopefully i will find somekind of equilibrium soon.