New catch phrase

I remember when i was 10 or 11 i used to go to church a lot. Some of my friends were involved with the chruch in various roles and it really wasn't that bad for us kids. Pretend to sing a song or two and get sent off to the side room to do crafts and play games. It had nothing to do with religon or god or faith, i had never really given those kinds of things any thought. But i remeber one day i got this feeling, most people would probably call it a thought but it was more like a feeling. It happened after we had taken our leave of the adults and the supervisor was trying to tell us some bible story. I can't remember what story it was, but i remember the thought..."that doesn't make any sense." It wasn't a religous thing, it nothing to do with god or faith, i just heard these words and thought...no.

Since then, that same thought has pooped up in my head more time and time again, probably becoming my most frequent thought and the driving force behind my academic career. But i never liked the way that those particular words sounded. that doesn't make any sense. In retrospect with all i know now i can make some guesses as to why i never liked it, it's simplistic, not all that forceful, sounds condescending, but those weren't the reasons that i disliked the sound of it back then, it just didn't sound nice, but it would have to do.

That is until a few years later. I don't know where i first heard this, i'm sure it must have been some movie or TV show but i instantly liked it. Insane. It was a much simpler more powerful word that articulated what i felt more then the words, that doesn't make any sense. So i started using that in place of the full formal sentence. There were still times when calling something or someone insane was inappropriate so i had to revert to the old catch phrase every once and a while, but i really liked m new one.

As i got older and navigated high school, i became exposed to many new exciting and strange things. It quickly became inappropriate to call a friend, history, George Bush and a hockey game the same thing. So being a foul mouthed teenager i added fucking to some instances of insane to make it more powerful. I had now evolved from: "that doesn't make any sense." to "that's insane" to "that's FUCKING insane."

But again as i grow older the new catch phrase starts to lose it's potency. And i'm encountering an increaseingly absurd bread of aponent which ups the antee on my old objects of bewildermen one more time. It's hard to say that an individuals faith and a frivoulous purchase are the same thing as the freakshow history of the church and the existance of a capitalist system at all. You just can't compare Bush and Nixon...who still don't hold a candle to Cesare Borgia and the Medicii's.

So i needed to find a new way to make insanity more intense. Again i don't know where i heard this first but i really like it and i've started to run with it. I hope i don't uncover many more layers of insanity in this world because i don't know what else i could ad on after this. But untill such a time as that is neccisary the new catch phrase is...

BAT SHIT fucking insane.